Ignorance Isn't A Bliss

Tak kesahla kalau kene kutuk Minah Karat. Malam ni nak feeling-feeling lagu Kak Melah.






Dengar lagu tu then you know the tornado inside me. Seksa hidup berjauhan ni. Macam-macam mende kena buat sorang-sorang. Layan feeling pun sorang-sorang. Sampaikan kalau nak bermanja-manja boleh buat nak manja ikut Plan A ke Plan B. Tunggu kepulangan si dia nanti.


Ye. Ye. Saye tengah beremosi. But don't worry, I'm MORE than OK. :D



Sometimes rasa lelah. Sometimes rase resah. Sometimes rasa tak daya dah tanggung rindu. Sometimes rase kering dah air mata. Nak makan sedap-sedap sorang-sorang pun fikir 20-30 kali.. Alangkah indah kalau die ade di sisi. But what to do. Have to be strong and hilangkan sedih dengan buat ape saje yang boleh mendatangkan happy di hati. Ada masanya, after balik keje I singgah Jusco, Giant, etc..just to kill the time, just to make myself penat yang amat..so bile balik rumah terus doze off. Tak perlu fikirkan sangat the loneliness inside. Tak dinafikan, bahagia terasa sebab the ultimate thing is we are husband and wife. We are a family. But..still, rindu-rindu-rindu.



Pagi pergi keje takde tangan untuk dicium. No kiss on forehead.

Senja bile sampai rumah, no smiles from someone to cure your tiring muscles.

No one to share all the ups and downs of the day.



Cakap kat phone tak sama dengan cakap berdepan. Tak nampak mata dia.


I know he felt the same way. T___T.



I'm just an ordinary woman. I want someone to entertain my madness. Especially when you are carrying a baby inside you, you want to be pampered by the one you love, i mean the one who made you pregnant la kan. Life like this..bile ngidam sumthing kena carik sendiri.. Kalau nak tunggu husband balik, sempat hilang rase ngidam tu..



No.No.No. I'm not blaming you, dear. I'm not complaining.. I love you so much that I don't want to burden you. You are my sayangness. Engkaulah kesayanganku. Kalau husband balik sini mesti dah penat, takkan nak susahkan die melayan kehendak yang bukan-bukan itu.



My cravings came so sudden. And I have to get it asap. If not, 'die' pergi macam tu je. Sedey. Like last-last month, I suddenly felt like I want to eat satay. I waited until the feelings fade away sebab malas nak layan. But 'it' stays no matter how hard I tried to ignore it. By the time it's 6.30pm, I just couldn't stand the feeling. So I drove to the stall just to buy 20 cucuk of satay. Actually its too much for me. Tapi takkan nak beli 5-10 cucuk. Macam kesian sangat. Nak makan sorang je. Whatever. Then I drove home. I ate all the satay like I never knew what satay tastes like before this. Macam orang kebulur pun ade.. But then I felt empty. Sedap..tapi bile makan rase masin. Sebab dah campur ngan air mata.



*speechless*



Lock me inside your heart please, give me the key and I'll throw the key into the sea.