I'm not feeling very well last week. Seminggu tu gi keje ngan perasaan tak rela. Macam kena paksa je. Bantal macam ade magnet. Tiap pagi time nak gosok gigi macam satu penyeksaan. Tapi takkan tak gosok gigi lak kan time gi keje? Uhh. Gross.
And so do the husband. I guess his condition is worse than mine. Blame the bad budget hotel. My husband nih senang infected ngan batuk, selsema..lebih-lebih lagi kalau dok tempat sempit, poor air circulation, plus econ non-stop..die sangat tak suke. Tapi saye selalu lupe.. :( Sorry.
Ape ehhh terms untuk orang fobia tempat sempit tu? :D
I dah tau dah die tak mungkin balik this weekend sebab ada kerja. He kept repeating it since at Nawal's reception so that I won't mengamuk. Kalau die bagitau last minute die dah tau dah reaction I macamane. Meroyan. Hehe. I understand his nature of work..so dah bleh mentally prepared yang die memang tak balik minggu ni. Disebabkan rasa tak sihat, hari Jumaat drive jugak sorang-sorang gi klinik. Nak amik ubat and buat first check up sekali. Kene amik darah..the doctor said my blood vein is too small. Dah cucuk belah kanan, tapi salah cucuk kat urat so darah tak keluar pun. Pastu tukar tangan kiri pulak. Adoiiii.. Saket tau time cucuk tu. Baru darah keluar. Sudahnye dua-dua belah tangan bertampal plaster cenggini.
Sebelum balik, I dah tapau mi hailam siap-siap. So, malam dalam pukul 10.00 camtu baru start berkomunikasi husband-wife..as usual. :D
Weekdays, biasenye our communication activity started at nite..bile dua-dua dah balik keje and a bit relax. Kalau balik keje lambat atau penat sangat..dah nak dekat tengah malam baru call. Siang call kejap-kejap tanye dah makan ke belum..sihat ke tidak je..Kami tak macam other couple yang tiap pagi saling jadik alarm clock masing-masing. Hehe. Ehh..time couple dulu ade gak try buat mende ni jadik routine..tapi tak berjaya. Heheh. Time aku bangun awal blehla ala-ala call atau miscall. Kalau lambat, takde maknanye..masing-masing paham-paham sendiri..and I know every morning he had to rush to his workplace. PJ to Jalan Semarak, KL.
Get back to citer asal, he texted me.
"Buat ape tu?"
I tak reply. Instead, I sent him an mms. Me and mi hailam. Haha. Muke sembab..sebab time nak makan tu terasa air mata menitik. Sedih woOo laki tak balik. Dahla tak sehat. Tak lama pastu he called.
"Tengah makan?"
"Tengah makan?"
I said "A'ah..tengah makan mi hailam sambil nanges." T____T.
Haha. What a statement. Statement makan dalammm.
Suara kena control coz he hate it so much kalau I nangis sebab rindu especially. Haha. Takde can la nak jadik si cengeng. Jangan harap die pujuk, lagi kene marah ade la. Time tu I dengar die macam tengah cakap kat hp sambil drive.
"Abang kat ne ni?"
"Abang on the way balik Johor."
"Abang kat ne ni?"
"Abang on the way balik Johor."
He said that at 11.30pm. Terus air mate keluar..and I jerit "Abang jahattttttttttttttt!!"
Huh..nasib baik mi hailam tu dah tinggal sikit. Kalau tidak, mesti tak habes sebab happy sangat. He reached home at almost 4.00 a.m. I sampai dah tertido-tido tunggu die..kejap-kejap die call sebab ngantuk drive. Die sampai je I terus bukak gate..and then asked him "Mana bag abg?"
He said,
"Sehelai sepinggang."
Sambil buat gaya rappers, refering to what he's wearing at that moment. Sweater ngan seluar pendek. Lawak okeh husband I nih. Selamba die je. Takpela..kadang-kadang kalau die bawak balik bag pun I tataula ape yang die campak dalam tu..last-last kene pakai apa yang die memang simpan kat umah ni je.. :D Rupenye weekend job tu cancel..
Life is full of surprises. And so do you. I love you!
Most of the times..I tried my best to appreciate all the things I had rite now..and ignoring any kind of negative stuffs or words from others. I'm getting MORE since I'm pregnant. Can't believe it. T____T..Like people said like this to me.
Don't be too independent..Sometimes let the man do the things..or else he will take you for granted.
Ohh. How I hate that. I said to myself..be strong. Kenapa mesti berkira dengan suami sendiri..Kan kite sendiri yang pilih nak hidup dengan orang tu..Bukan kawen paksa, kan? Dah tu? So kenelah terima buruk baiknya..Kalau kita ikhlas layan suami, insyaallah Allah akan bagi ganjarannya..Then pasangan kita pun akan menghargai apa yang kite buat..Kalau die jenis yang tak tahu menghargai, kenapa kite pilih untuk hidup dengan die. Enuff said..it's our own choice. Kalau tak boleh nak accept, sila jangan meroyan kat orang lain..atau spread the disease to others. Asyik whining je..go get a life la. Tau tak suami tak suka isteri yang asyik merungut je?
Memang tak senang hidup sendiri ni. Tapi I tak kata. Memang susah hidup sendiri. Sebabnye, I tak rasa susah pun kalau kene beli barang rumah sendiri, check minyak hitam sendiri. Gi servis kereta sendiri. Gi bayar bil sendiri. Gi pasar beli sayur, beli ikan sendiri. Kadang-kadang terpaksa gi kedai hardware beli getah paip la, beli mangga la beli paku la..beli tah pape skru la..I tak rase susah..Cuma mungkin, lagi SENANG kalau mende tu husband tolong buatkan..tapi kalau dah die dok jauh..I won't bugging him with this and that..I lagi prefer..die balik tu..terus baring depan TV sama-sama..I masak, die makan..picit bahu die..die picit kaki I..kalau rase nak makan sedap-sedap, gi pasar sama-sama..kalau agak-agak malas..makan je kat luar..Not so much things can be done within 2 days..so we have to make it to its fullest. LIFE IS SIMPLE and much more rewarding if we take things easy..not because we don't care..tapi apa yang lebih indah dalam bercinta selain dari melihat orang yang kite sayang happy dan bahagia, kan? Kalau kite fikirkan masalah, masalah takkan hilang..yang penting kite appreciate each other. Sama-sama kerja, sama-sama penat..tanggungjawab sama-sama share.
And then I talked to husband about this. Nak comfortkan diri sendiri. :D And I said to him, if you really love me, you won't take me for granted, rite? I know how much he wants us to live together. I know how sad he is to leave me behind with this small baby bumps.. broken heart. And me, watching him drove away.. with broken heart, also. People will never understand unless they were in the same shoes. And, there are some conversation that makes my heart aching. By having a conversation with people whom I thought they were in the same shoes like me.
"Now the baby is still small, there's no problem. But soon, you'll face so many things. Husband kena gak balik selalu..Kalau boleh tiap minggu."
Being me, my answer will be like this "ala..kesianla nak suruh die balik tiap minggu. Kesian die penat, duit pun banyak habes atas jalan."
"Tak boleh, kene jugak suruh die balik. Nanti kite sorang-sorang stress. Biar die rase jugak ape yang kite rase."
Kadang-kadang I tak paham..die pun LDM jugak..kenapa die ade mind set yang begitu. So to calm myself, I said this to myself If you yourself tak kuat, jangan nak demotivate orang lain. Things being ignored..tapi hati tetap pedih.
Another story..How will you react if another pregnant mummy said this to you?
"Nad, take care. Ada kawan aku kurus macam ko..anak die mati dalam perut."
I can't avoid myself from cursing her. Cursing and cursing. Deep down inside. Masyaallah.
Like..kalau kite visit kawan yang tengah menderita kanser..patut ke kite citer kat die tentang orang lain yang kite kenal, yang turut menderita kanser, tapi dah meninggal dah pun. Patut tak? I don't take it as a concern statement from you. Thank you.
Aperpun..tiap hari I doa pada Allah..bila dah duduk sorang-sorang ni..kadang-kadang boleh meroyan kalau asyik bercakap dengan orang. That's why sometimes I'd rather keep it to myself..we will never expect what will come out from people's mouth. I had friends who are in LDM. But most of them stayed with housemates, or family members..Kalau citer situasi kite pun kadang-kadang diorang tak paham..
Last but least..this is our sweetheart at 13weeks3 days. Sepatutnya, time ni baru 12weeks ++..EDD dah jadik makin awal..4April2011 pulak..EDD sebenar 18April2011..tapi doctor kata it's OK coz the baby is developing..ke sebab I makan banyak lately? Hehe. And no worries, at this moment as long as the mummy take good care of herself..good care means GOOD FOOD to me. :D I'm a happy 'eater' rite now..makan ape saja..but the healthy ones la kan. :D
Baby tengah rilek-rilek time ni. Pastu Dr.Ros gerak-gerakkan die sebab nak ukur saiz kepala..boleh pulak die macam protes hentak-hentak kaki. And sambung letak tangan kat mulut. It's a miracle. Baby dah gerak-gerak..tapi doc kate tak dapat rase lagi. Kena tunggu lagi sebulan dua. Alhamdulillah. Can't wait!
Thanx husband kerana tolong mandikan Tammy and Timtim. These babies..kalau daddy diorang balik sukela..ade orang layan. I memang dah tak layan sangat diorang sekarang. Takat bersihkan poopoo and sediakan makan minum die je..yang lain takde mood dah.
Ini memang champion dalam bab sepah rumah
Macam diva..
We love you Daddy! Gonna miss you damn much. See you again next-next week.
Til then..kembali kepada mode *derita merindu*..dan makan dengan jayanye gune duit jajan yang Daddy tinggalkan. :D
Kepada kawan-kawan yang LDR or LDM..distance does not matter as long as we love each other. Allah will show you the way. Trust each other. Praying and hoping. ♥
Don't be too independent..Sometimes let the man do the things..or else he will take you for granted.
Ohh. How I hate that. I said to myself..be strong. Kenapa mesti berkira dengan suami sendiri..Kan kite sendiri yang pilih nak hidup dengan orang tu..Bukan kawen paksa, kan? Dah tu? So kenelah terima buruk baiknya..Kalau kita ikhlas layan suami, insyaallah Allah akan bagi ganjarannya..Then pasangan kita pun akan menghargai apa yang kite buat..Kalau die jenis yang tak tahu menghargai, kenapa kite pilih untuk hidup dengan die. Enuff said..it's our own choice. Kalau tak boleh nak accept, sila jangan meroyan kat orang lain..atau spread the disease to others. Asyik whining je..go get a life la. Tau tak suami tak suka isteri yang asyik merungut je?
Memang tak senang hidup sendiri ni. Tapi I tak kata. Memang susah hidup sendiri. Sebabnye, I tak rasa susah pun kalau kene beli barang rumah sendiri, check minyak hitam sendiri. Gi servis kereta sendiri. Gi bayar bil sendiri. Gi pasar beli sayur, beli ikan sendiri. Kadang-kadang terpaksa gi kedai hardware beli getah paip la, beli mangga la beli paku la..beli tah pape skru la..I tak rase susah..Cuma mungkin, lagi SENANG kalau mende tu husband tolong buatkan..tapi kalau dah die dok jauh..I won't bugging him with this and that..I lagi prefer..die balik tu..terus baring depan TV sama-sama..I masak, die makan..picit bahu die..die picit kaki I..kalau rase nak makan sedap-sedap, gi pasar sama-sama..kalau agak-agak malas..makan je kat luar..Not so much things can be done within 2 days..so we have to make it to its fullest. LIFE IS SIMPLE and much more rewarding if we take things easy..not because we don't care..tapi apa yang lebih indah dalam bercinta selain dari melihat orang yang kite sayang happy dan bahagia, kan? Kalau kite fikirkan masalah, masalah takkan hilang..yang penting kite appreciate each other. Sama-sama kerja, sama-sama penat..tanggungjawab sama-sama share.
And then I talked to husband about this. Nak comfortkan diri sendiri. :D And I said to him, if you really love me, you won't take me for granted, rite? I know how much he wants us to live together. I know how sad he is to leave me behind with this small baby bumps.. broken heart. And me, watching him drove away.. with broken heart, also. People will never understand unless they were in the same shoes. And, there are some conversation that makes my heart aching. By having a conversation with people whom I thought they were in the same shoes like me.
"Now the baby is still small, there's no problem. But soon, you'll face so many things. Husband kena gak balik selalu..Kalau boleh tiap minggu."
Being me, my answer will be like this "ala..kesianla nak suruh die balik tiap minggu. Kesian die penat, duit pun banyak habes atas jalan."
"Tak boleh, kene jugak suruh die balik. Nanti kite sorang-sorang stress. Biar die rase jugak ape yang kite rase."
Kadang-kadang I tak paham..die pun LDM jugak..kenapa die ade mind set yang begitu. So to calm myself, I said this to myself If you yourself tak kuat, jangan nak demotivate orang lain. Things being ignored..tapi hati tetap pedih.
Another story..How will you react if another pregnant mummy said this to you?
"Nad, take care. Ada kawan aku kurus macam ko..anak die mati dalam perut."
I can't avoid myself from cursing her. Cursing and cursing. Deep down inside. Masyaallah.
Like..kalau kite visit kawan yang tengah menderita kanser..patut ke kite citer kat die tentang orang lain yang kite kenal, yang turut menderita kanser, tapi dah meninggal dah pun. Patut tak? I don't take it as a concern statement from you. Thank you.
Aperpun..tiap hari I doa pada Allah..bila dah duduk sorang-sorang ni..kadang-kadang boleh meroyan kalau asyik bercakap dengan orang. That's why sometimes I'd rather keep it to myself..we will never expect what will come out from people's mouth. I had friends who are in LDM. But most of them stayed with housemates, or family members..Kalau citer situasi kite pun kadang-kadang diorang tak paham..
Last but least..this is our sweetheart at 13weeks3 days. Sepatutnya, time ni baru 12weeks ++..EDD dah jadik makin awal..4April2011 pulak..EDD sebenar 18April2011..tapi doctor kata it's OK coz the baby is developing..ke sebab I makan banyak lately? Hehe. And no worries, at this moment as long as the mummy take good care of herself..good care means GOOD FOOD to me. :D I'm a happy 'eater' rite now..makan ape saja..but the healthy ones la kan. :D
Baby tengah rilek-rilek time ni. Pastu Dr.Ros gerak-gerakkan die sebab nak ukur saiz kepala..boleh pulak die macam protes hentak-hentak kaki. And sambung letak tangan kat mulut. It's a miracle. Baby dah gerak-gerak..tapi doc kate tak dapat rase lagi. Kena tunggu lagi sebulan dua. Alhamdulillah. Can't wait!
Thanx husband kerana tolong mandikan Tammy and Timtim. These babies..kalau daddy diorang balik sukela..ade orang layan. I memang dah tak layan sangat diorang sekarang. Takat bersihkan poopoo and sediakan makan minum die je..yang lain takde mood dah.
Ini memang champion dalam bab sepah rumah
Macam diva..We love you Daddy! Gonna miss you damn much. See you again next-next week.
Til then..kembali kepada mode *derita merindu*..dan makan dengan jayanye gune duit jajan yang Daddy tinggalkan. :D
Kepada kawan-kawan yang LDR or LDM..distance does not matter as long as we love each other. Allah will show you the way. Trust each other. Praying and hoping. ♥
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16 comments:
nad, i pun LDM. and pernah je org sibuk2 nak batu apikan suami isteri yg dok jaoh ni. tya kenapa sanggup tggl hubby jaoh2?tya xtakut ke? hello, kalo i tkt, mestila i xsmbong blaja n duk jaoh cm gini kan?
xpe nad. bwk2 bersabar. dok jaoh2 ni mmg jd telrebih sensitif kan? tmbah lagi nad preggie. kira ok la husband dpt balik seminggu ke 2 ke.sebulan k. i ni?i boleh balik sekali lam 3-4 bln je. kalo flight tu singgit, tiap ari i ulang alik.
hehehe
btw, be strong dear!!!
chill!
nad..jaga kandungan leklok tau.
i wonder saperla kawan ko yg kejam tuh. aku kenal ker? mak aku kurus gila n anak dier 5 sihat gemok2 spt aku.haha
eeee kurang ajarnya si 'mulut puaka' itu!*opps sori ter'EMO' jap*
Kot ya pun nak 'sharing' ader banyak cara kan??Ni ngan selamba badak jek kasik oang gentar dengar.Ishh.Spesies duk utan sungguh!
Be strong nad..who knows god has plan sumthing great for u aheadkan?Hv faith k..
p/s:Sob2 oso..T_T just sent hubby yg balik ke Utara.And the counting started..TABAH!
rai..tenkiu dear! memang kejam pun..aku dah pangkah dalam list 'kawan' dalam hidup aku. kejap giler ayat..mase die cakap tu aku blur..aku tanye die balik
"mati sebab ape"
die kate..
"tataula..mati tetibe."
weihhhh. berasaplah..dah tu wat pe citer kat aku mende gitu. dah la die tengah tunggu hari je..nasib la aku sabar banyak-banyak.. kalau tak, kuarlah macam-macam..well it's life..aku consider die tu manusia pelik jela..:)
nurainie.. i sokong. bagusla kite sambung belaja..improve our life chievement..bile dah senang sket and dah berjaya, buktikan pada org tu yang kite boleh berjaya dalam dua-dua marriage and career life.
nad dah biase sangat kalau orang kate
"lelaki kalau dok jauh ni jangan percaya sangat..macam2 die buat"
i adore you! 3-4 bulan baru jumpe..saketnye tanggung rindu! hopefully tak lama..nanti bile dah dapat hidup sama mesti manis je rase..sekarang pun manis gak kan bile jumpe jarang2 ni..:P
pastu kite pun jadik tak percaya kat laki sendiri..mulelah gaduh pasal hal remeh ni..dulu termakan gak kate-kate org..tapi husband selalu kate kenapa dengar sangat cakap orang.bukan diorang yang bagi kite makan. *sigh*
ya Allah...sape lah kawan yang sungguh bersifat laserisme(cipta sendiri)sampai sanggup buat ayat macam tu. nad, jgn pikir -ve sgt tau. azian pun dulu selalu di'dendangkan' dengan cerita2 -ve. plus azian kan petite size. selalu jer rs risau+takut+pikir bkn2. tp lama kelamaan, kita sendiri boleh tau mcm mn badan kita rs. yg penting jg diri, jg makan and jg kesihatan baik2 okey :)
yg psl muntah time gosok gigi tu, dulu azian pun mcm tu. hehe. tak best kan? bila refer kat doc, dia ckp jgn gosok gigi beria sgt. gosok ala kadar. yg penting kumur dgn mouth wash. nnt dah masuk 2nd and 3rd trimester akan ok.
and azian rs better nad jgnlah bersihkan poo2 kucing tu. tak berapa elok kot time preggy ni. sebab poo2 kucing ada bacteria. try to google about it. dlm majalah mami&baby bulan ni pun ada info pasal tu. pegi beli sekarang. :p. eh2!panjang pulak mengomen. giler kuasa betul. hihi. okeylah, jg diri tau. jom kite sama2 jg bb kite :)
betul cakap nad..bila ldm nih..saat2 bila hubby balik..dah cukup terbaik..dan lalui gaduh gurau atau nikmati apa saje moment yg sempat utk masa yg singkat 2 dah cukup berharga..
walau dalm keadaan kita pregnnt nih..dan masih ada hal yg kita kena lalui sendiri..by our own..2 semua tak lunturkan kasih sayang kita pada hubby kan..
moga baby kita membesar sihat dan kuat mcm mommy nya..
take care tau..
yang..u still jaga kucing tu yer??smlm i ada beli majalah mami n baby tau..dia ader la citer pasal popoo kucing..aper kata u try baca...
(sama2 ambik berat kan) take care yang..
org2 ni mmg sibuk.. patut bg motivasi bg semangat bukan api2kan org..betul ckp awk, org yg mengalami situasi LDM ni je yg paham and tahu knp kite dok asing2.. pd org yg tak faham, dia igt kite ni suke2 je agaknye..
jahat betul mulut kawan yg ckp pasal org kurus tu.. apa daa eee kalau sy pun marah..
rs sedey lak bc entry u ni nad..rs sgt bersyukur, even kami pon LDM juga, tp sy stay ngan parents..x mcm u survive sesorg dlm keadaan preggy ni..hrp2 u n baby sentiasa sihat n di lindungi Allah..ignore je ape 'kwn' u tu kt..kwn ke ckp mcm tu..hish..jd marah pulak..
fobia takot tempat sempit = claustophobic <---ejaan x pasti yea..hehe
Arjuna pun sgt x suka kalo aku nangis2 rindu, nangis2 xpuas hati x dipujuk...dia ckp aku kuat menangis..hobi menangis...nak buat mcm mn kan...dah air mata nak kuar...hurmmm, mcm tu la rutin aku sblm duk sama dulu...mlm, masa tuk bchenta di talipon je...Kalo dpt surprise cam2, mmg tkinja2 mlompat la...hehe
Allah lebih tahu kan.Dia beri apa yg kita perlu. Dulu aku nak sgt duk sama Arjuna. Perasaan nak duk sama lebih kuat dr perasaan nak baby..Aku selalu doa supaya kami dpt duk sm cepat2..Allah dah makbul dah... Skang, perasaan nak baby plak...DIA hold dulu sbb nak uji kesabaran aku kan.
Aku pun baru come across manusia bmulut longkang...Staf aku sendri. Dgn selamba dia kata atas muka aku,"org xkan tny bp byk harta yg kita ada...org akan tny bp ramai anak yg kita ada...xde anak tu, xde harta lah...sia2 je la".....kalo ko apa ko rasa...Nak ganyang je kan...Dah la staf aku yg lain ada kat c2 gak...Sampaikan yg lain wat xdgr je apa yg manusia tu ckp..Mebe staf lain tu fhm apa aku rasa..huhuhu....
who doesnt love surprises kan. tp time2 preggie ni mmg akan baaaaaaaaaanyak sgt ups n downs in emotions. kena betul2 kuatkan hati tau. kalau tak... jadik mcm aku la bergelen2 air mata, sampaikan eryna nangih pon kuar air mata sebaldi! kesian budak tak bersalah hahahaha :P
sape yg tak sayang mulut tu ko cilikan je. kurang hasam betul
nad, kawan nad tue mmg tak patut sungguh....my fren,nak beranak dah..berat de baru 53kg...sihat je baby...persetankan mereka itu...huhuh...ok sal...PJJ nie, walaupun kiree dekat ngan hubby...tapi, still...sume keje..masih kiree yg buat...kiree leh gi pasar sendiri..angkat beg plastik sampai 6 7 beg...gi klinik sendiri...sume sendiri...tak suka susahkan hubby...kiree simpan keje tue sume...masa kiree tgh pantang nnt..mmg dia la kena buat sume sndiri...skng nie, manjakan dia dulu...huhuh....
okay..yg EDD, kiree pun camtue juga...ptt 5feb..sudah tuka 29jan...hukhuk...takpe..yg penting baby sihat...
ok dear...take care. :)
ish! geram dgn si mulut busuk itu...boh cili kang...sian juga sama kamu kak harz..manusi2...tak igt jaga mulut lgsg!
nad tau tak, bila bce tulisan kamu, rasa terbawa2 dlm crite...maka klu suke, trus june pun sengih2, kalau sedih terus muka nk nangis..klu sakit ati muka nk emo terlebih.hiks!
jaga diri kamu baik2 okeh..n tke cre of ur little miracle tau!
do really take care of urself...just ignore what that 'mean lady' said...yg paling penting, baby growing well...that's the most important thing..as for the mom, kurus xbermaksud xcukup nutrient...padahal, medically, overweight n obese ladies who are the one have quite risky pregnancy...so jgn sedih2 tau...be strong...May Allah bless u all the time...^_^
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