♥ Not Worth Trying.. ♥

At least for me.. Maybe I gave up too soon.

Just want to share some of the things that I encountered during my breastfeeding journey. Tak dinafikan, macam smooth sailing.. But not at ALL times.

Susu merudum. Perkara yang amat ditakuti. Whoa.. freakin! The first time I experienced it was monthsss ago. I couldn't remember the exact date. Tapi seingat-ingatnye time tu dah naik kerja after confinement period. I skipped breakfast and lunch, having brunch at 4-5pm. The result: Bila pump.. susu macam segan nak keluar.. Setitik-titik macam semput je. Breast rase mcm kosong, lembik semacam. Biasenye time susu penuh, breast keras sangat-sangat especially when you derhaka dengan peraturan mengepam. Actually, until today if I ever skipped the pumping routine, jawapannye adalah satu penyeksaan. Huuu. Sakit sampai pening kepala. The pain was unbearable.

So I learnt from that day that IF I skipped my meals, it will affect my kilang susu. I ate kurma, eat nasi, etc then the next day baru kilang beroperasi seperti biasa. Fuh, lega. :)

Learnt a lesson, rite?

Sejak Delisha umur 6 bulan, she starts having batuk, flu, demam, etc. Paling teruk last 2 weeks. Hingus meleleh je, batuk berkahak. Kalau tak die yang selsema, mesti I yang selsema. I don't know why. Tapi I ni memang jenis yang mudah kena selsema. Ni bile die dah sehat, I pun sehat, I terfikir lah nak ambil supplement to get an optimum health. Chewah. So I tried Set B trial for breast feeding.

I started took it on Thurday.

Friday. (My bad, I took brunch at 4pm. I didn't learnt my own mistakes)

Saturday.

These 3 days, really torturing as my milk production drop giler-giler. Talking about the quality, susu sangat pekat, that's the good part of it. But the quantity is too little. Marmet setengah jam dapat 1 oz je. Picitlah cik B bagai nak rak. Keciwa. I drank more than 3 liter water. Rase nak pecah perut minum air banyak sangat. Entah berape kali ke toilet. Tambah lagi serabut Delisha meraung tiap kali I pergi toilet. Arghh.. tension. Sangat sedih. I ate a lot.. Sebab I ingat it's because I makan lambat sangat time hari Jumaat tu. I ate Kurma. Gi selongkar peti.. tengok ape lagi milk booster yang I pernah beli dan tak habiskan. Gi korek food stock locker.

To produce human milk, we still have to rely on moomoo's milk. :P

Milk booster

Milk booster lagi

Still, mengecewakan.

Honestly, I dah lama tak amalkan ape-ape milk booster. Sebab rasa macam OK je kalau tak makan.. Cuma make sure eat healthy meals. Dah berapa bulan dah I dok dalam my comfort zone.. Tak risau tentang production susu. Yang masih mampu lagi menampung keperluan dan demand Delisha. Stok EBM, taklah sampai penuh peti.. Kalau tetibe supply takde memang hanya cukup menampung beberape hari je. But I tried to think positive. Insyaallah cukup.

Tapi bila tetibe jadik macam ni, of coslah meroyan kejap. Lagi stress, the whole Saturday Delisha buat perangai 'lain macam' macam susu tak cukup. Risau, menyesal, semua ada.

During the three consequent days, I let Delisha hisap breast kanan je as usual. Belah kiri memang untuk pump. That's my pumping strategy. Okey, jangan sebut pasal nanti t*t*k besar sebelah ke yang sebelah lagi akan oversized, etc. I tak percaye itu semua. Huhu. Tapi sebab susu macam takde, I perah pakai tangan je. Bermarmet lah berapa hari tu dapat ciput je. Husband pun advise berhenti makan Shaklee. Thus, on Sunday I stop ambil the pills. I don't want to gamble teruskan makan dengan harapan this will get over soon. Macammana kalau makin lama susu makin takde kan? Tetibe rasa sangat sayu. Allah je yang tahu.

So now I guess things went back to normal. I managed to get 9oz + 3oz (2 kali pumping session within 11hours of working).


Yang dalam botol tu untuk bekal Delisha esok. Yang dalam liner boleh jadikan stok. Dengan syarat, malam ni dan esok pagi I mesti pump untuk dapatkan lagi 2 botol berisi 3oz susu. Delisha hanya minum 3 botol susu je setiap hari.


Dulu-dulu, kalau dapat banyak ni I dah cukup puas hati sebab ni je pun dah cukup untuk bekal esok (biasanya malam dah m.a.l.a.s nak pump dah. direct feeding je kan). Tapi ni tengah terrajen sebab baru lepas terhantuk kan. :D


By the way, today (Wednesday) I keluar awal at 7.30am sebab kena jaga exam. Nih dah pukul 6.00pm dok sibuk type blog. Kejap lagi nak solat pastu baru gi amik Delisha. :)

Hmm.. maybe tak serasi dengan saye kots set B tu. And Delisha pun dari hari Ahad tu mengalami constipation. Malam semalam baru poopoo (Selasa). It's not normal for her. Cause Delisha adalah baby yang MESTI yakyak tiap pagi sebelum saye hantar die pergi rumah babysitter. Eheh.

To me, breastfeeding is the most precious mummy-Delisha moment.

These days she hates me using the nursing cover while Nursing In Public. Which caused me DISASTER. :D

Saye belum bersedia andai saat-saat itu tiba-tiba hilang.