I love being in love. And I take good care the love I've got..like I keep an eye on a balloon. Jaga jangan sampai pecah. A balloon, full of love inside it! I was like a naive lil girl. I don't know what's goin on. I don't know since when..I don't know why..When suddenly the balloon popped. So there. We broke up. Pity me. Cause I cried quite a lot. I never thought the love will be blown away.
I have seen the signs for some time, so intellectually I have no problems with it, and I was consciously somewhat prepared. But emotionally it’s another story. Totally unprepared! I guess I just need to give it time. Haven’t gotten my heart to accept it. So, it’s official, my heart’s broken and I’m licking my wounds and mending my broken heart as hard as I can. May 2006. The day he went away (Dulu I nanges tiap kali dengar lagu M2M: The day you went away).
Luckily I have found NoorKhairulAnuar. How? Am gonna reveal some personal stuffs here. Sila jangan muntah yer sebab it was 4 years back. Budak hingusan so abaikanlah ayat tak matured di bawah ini. :D
We met via online. We fell in love wayyyyy before we met each other in person. I still remember. Of course. Its 4th October 2006. I don't know him. He doesn't know me either. Only God knows how we had each other in our Friend's List. I guess it's our JODOH. This was the first message came to my inbox from him (He already deleted his Friendster account). Time tu bulan puase. I pulak keje macam kuli-batak kat PizzaHut lepas graduate.
Pergh..that "nak jadi awek saye tak? free je" punye statement makes my blood went upstairs! Time nih macam alergik ngan lelaki yang pandai mengayat a.k.a sweet talker. Carik pasal namenye tuh.
6th October 2006. Rase nak lempang muke sendiri tengok ada smiley. Nak jual mahal tapi ayat lentok. Huruf pun ade kecik ade besar. Ko ingat ko comel? Ergh. Tengok tu apa die tulis.
"Nak jadi awek saye memang free. tapi nak jadi kekasih hati saye rasenye lagi mahal dari harga nak jadi bf awak kot. "
Saket hati aiiii. Perang emosi. Haha. Pastu tah hape tah aku reply. Dah takbley retrieve. So next message,
16th October 2006. Tengokla tu. Die gune name mak die. Sudikah sekiranye saye ingin mengenali awak lebih dalam? Ohhh. Plisssss.
His pic time tu..with a fren of himIni macam cinta express namanye. Dalam mase tak sampai sebulan terus ON. Hahahaha. I think that's what we called 'CHEMISTRY". Kalau tak kene gaya, first verse je dah boleh buat kite SHUTDOWN. Ye takkk??? :D
And then we exchanged our phone numbers. And then we start sms-ing and calling-calling. Our first blind date was on 3rd February 2007. Almost 4 months after we like 'paham-paham sendiri' both of our feelings. And then yada..yada.. seriously dating. Ada ups and downs, of course. Cepat je rase sume ni berlaku. Tapi nak kawen amik mase 3 tahun gakla berkenalan sebab kumpul duit nak kawen. I don't remember how he proposed. No official proposal. :) Ehh ehh..entah-entah ade tapi aku tak ingat. Hahah. Hampeh. Tau-tau je dah pandai-pandai set tarikh kawen sendiri. Haha. Pastu baru gitau mak ayah masing-masing. Ayahhhhh..akak nak kawen! Masih ingat betapa gabranye mase mintak permission nak kawen tuh! Menggigil. Hehehe.
And then we exchanged our phone numbers. And then we start sms-ing and calling-calling. Our first blind date was on 3rd February 2007. Almost 4 months after we like 'paham-paham sendiri' both of our feelings. And then yada..yada.. seriously dating. Ada ups and downs, of course. Cepat je rase sume ni berlaku. Tapi nak kawen amik mase 3 tahun gakla berkenalan sebab kumpul duit nak kawen. I don't remember how he proposed. No official proposal. :) Ehh ehh..entah-entah ade tapi aku tak ingat. Hahah. Hampeh. Tau-tau je dah pandai-pandai set tarikh kawen sendiri. Haha. Pastu baru gitau mak ayah masing-masing. Ayahhhhh..akak nak kawen! Masih ingat betapa gabranye mase mintak permission nak kawen tuh! Menggigil. Hehehe.
Relationship at early stages was so difficult. My pasts takes it’s toll on me, so I’m on survival mode. (Actually, he too). I'm confused, confused, confused. Meanwhile both of us move on with flirting, dating and blablabla. Hehehe. People said I used him for a 'rebounce'. I prove them they were wrong. So wrong. My heart got stitches an patches here an there..but I'm so happy! Of courselah, soal hati kan memang complicated. Bende yang dah lepas tu kejap kite ingat, kejap kite lupe. I'm glad I've found the right one. Insyaallah. No more patches. No more stitches. I've gone thru the healing process. He mended and sealed my heart with his love.
I always hate how he makes me wanna cry. Especially the moment when we need to say goodbye. I still cry these days. For the love I had in my my heart. For this guy. Ehem. Well..that was our love story. :P
Jaga belon jangan sampai pecah..Biar kempis takpe..tu pun sebab kite makin tua..ok? *wink*
What about yours??? :P
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31 comments:
wow....sgt cute..:P
mai..biase-biase je..so how do myrule and usrule met? ehems..:)
hahahaha..
kami dulu jumpe kt mirc # mmu :"> thn dec2001
xsampai sebln lps tu die dh kirim kad..
3bln lps tu die dh start calling2..
1st meet on 3rd jan 2004, after 2yrs emailing, chatting, n calling..
pastu? terus on lah (eh, i rase kami dh start on before we met lg kot.. hahaha)
dec2009 baru kawen, after 8yrs ups n down. hehe
cik puan fara..sile buat satu entry..nanti nad bosan buat keje nak gi bloghop. haha.
wah!nad, cinta cyber nampak. hehe. so cute lah hubby nad mengayat. yang tak boleh blah ayat "nak jadik awek saya?" ala2 faizal husin dlm cite gila2 remaja gitu. hehe.
azian..mamat sorang nih memang takbleh blahhhh..hehe..time tu baru lepas clash..malas betul2..so layankan jela..rupe2 nye sangkut gakk..hehe
kalah aku. HAHA boleh? mana leh lawan ayat joe, sudi tak jadi awek saya. sudi tak nad? HAHA
so sweet cinta virtual. taik spring nad!!!
comel nye.. hehe.. lawak kan bile ingat. kite pun teringin nak taip entry 'how we meet' mcm awk. tp i think lagi dasat nye 'rebounce' kot stori i. konpem kene cop kejam nanti. btw, cara dia tekel u ada style lahh.. ;p
nawal..sudi tak jadik kawan saye??hahahah. aku consider ayat die beberape tahun lepas tu kire proposal lah. proposal nak jadik awek ade bukti.proposal untuk dijadikan bini takde bukti..ke aku yang tak ingat? bolehnye tak ingat? haha. hampeh. haha.
shareeda..rebounce nye story? hehe. citer jelaaa...boleh tambah koleksi entry!. memang pon..asal orang ingat kite tengah rebounce je sume orang nak cop kite kejam..:P
kahkah. aku pon ada bukti tapi bukti kat hp lagi satu. aku repair tapi tak amik2 sudahnya resit aku tak ingat letak mana. AHA. bole?
ko nak tau tak..adik aku die ade satu buku khas..sms conversation antara die ngn bf die..die salin balik sms dalam buku tuh..kadang2 kantoi gak sebab aku terbaca..boleh suggest kat ko buat cenggitu gak
hahhahaha lawak, but its still cute and sweet, anyways...
mmg dia jenis straight to the pojnt. cth kalau nak g kedai depan umah, mmg direction dia straight je, tak mcm stgh org, kedai dpn mata, tp bg direction nun jauh 10kilos!hahaha
tak smstinya lps kita putus cinta, kita tergedik nk cr pegganti kan? dh takdir..mine dulu pun camtu..hnya tuhan je yg tahu how crazy i am, and bagai nak gila nanges bila kenang hal lama.yelah becinta for 5yrs then last skali delete camtu je..huhuhuu. and after one month broke, i felt in love with someone else, my husband! and i was soooooooooooo thanksful to Allah..alhamdulillah..
semoga perkahwinan kita disayangi Allah, amin.... :) :)
hi nad hehehe sweet la citer ni mcm dalm novel hehe
btw, ni blog kawen2 fara hehehehe
http://crystal-of-heart.blogspot.com/
Nad, kitaorg jumpa bila encik usrule masuk keja kat opis i..And i yang setup pc and all dianyer acc.. the rest yadaa..yadaa..yadaa la kan..:p
alena..betul tu..takdir namenye..siape yang tahu, kan? tapi kite sendiri kene bukakan hati..kalau tutup hati and bersikap prejudis kat semua lelaki, payahla kan..pedih tu memang pedih tapi akhirnye bahagia juga..:P
farah..ingatkan napela tetibe gi delete blog kawen2 tuh..ade lagi rupenye! nanti nad gi visit.
mai..ohhh..officemate lah ye..ape perasaan bercinta sesama officemate? hehe. tiap hari jumpe..nad nih sepanjang bercinta, mesti dapat yang LDR. Tak pernahnye dapat setempat. :P
u still simpan ke msg2 tu nad?comelll!u still got friendster?
wah,..nad, jumpe secara virtual dulu ek..kagum2..thanks to frenster..hehe..mmg salute la..mujur dpt yg terbaik utk diri kamu kan? hehe..
diah..of course ade lagi..tapi tak aktif dah..memori. Hehe.
ally..ramai je kan rupenye org yang jumpe secara virtual nih..mcm gambling gak sebenanrnye..mujur dapat The One. :P
wow! nice love story! =)
ada jugak sorg kwn asna mcm akak jugak. kenal dlm friendster juga dan berkahwin skrg =)
Happy ever after to you! =))
wahhhh....sweetnyer hehe...i do still simpan all the msg dlm frendster like nad do..heheh...mcm kiter pun time early stage of relationship gan Mr R(skang) pun susah gakk..mkn maser 2thun gak...then skang baru ok...sbb igt kenangan yg dlu2 tu kuat...hehe..teringin gak nak wat entry mcm ni...raser2nyer lps kahwin la heheh...mcm nad wat..kawaii san=)
nad..en.fika lagi gatai..memula kenai saya awak..dua tiga hari dah tukar abang..hehe..padahal sebaya..wekk..
tapi alhamdulillah, dah jodoh kan..huhu..
sweet! :)
rasanya courtship zaman skrg mesti ada online punya kalau tak byk pun sikit. kan dah canggih kan. bertemu jodoh pun online hehe.
mudah2an panjang jodoh korang :)
asna..thanx! not impossible kan..kalau dah jodoh tak ke mana..ikut celah mane pun bertemu dan bersatu jugak.
nad..tula..school crush! haha..dah jodoh kan..ramai gak couple dari samura yang sampai ke jinjang pelamin. how sweet! panjang jodoh mereka..u too..akan ikut jejak langkah diorang..be patient..tak lame je lagi..can't wait!
ryna..memang mantapla 2-3 hari dah tukar jadik abang! hehe. are you serious? nad pulak tak ingat la bile masenye tukar jadik panggil abang tu...wayyy before kawen dah start panggil abang. hempsss..ngade2..:)
iyer..virtual courtship macam dah makin common..kdg2 jumpe yang face to face tu pun macam tak berkenan..nak jugak orang yang susah nak nampak bayang dan batang hidung die tu. hehe.
adeh.. sweetnyer. bestkan zaman bercinta, nad.. leh jadi novel la cite nad.. tangkap cintan nyer novel..
cite nawal pon. tp dlm cite nawal sue leh jadi watak sampingan. life is interesting actually kan..
surayya..nad punyer cite so typicalla yang..cume cara penulisan berbeza. chewahh. ehh..sue nak jadik pelakon watak sampingan ke? hehe.
and yerp..life is interesting if we look it in an interesting perspectives..:P
so suwiiitt!!! kelakar la ur hubby..
ayat mmg sempoi..slumber..tp menyentuh hati pn nad kita kan. ;D
comel comel comel! semoga nad bahagia selamanya.. ;p
mine?nanti nak jugak lah wat entry cam nad.hehehhe..da kwen da leh buatkan?huhuhu
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hihihihi.....senyum simpul aku bc ni...
aku bz ni, tp nak bc jugak...
hihihi...senyum je...xle nak komen panjang....tp kan, Arjuna pun x propose officially....tau2 dah set tarikh...hurmmmmm....
nad, 99.9% macam same je cerita kita..start from friendster...dia start mesej masa fashya abes study, bulan puasa....jumpe dekat2 nak raya kat KLCC, 2-3kali jumpe trus macam declare jadik gf-bf, ni pun paham2 sendri...takes time nak terima dia masa tu sebab macam nad lah....erm...pastu nak kawen pun xde offical propose..tau2 je bertunang, masa nak bgtau nak kawen kat parent pun menggigil.... SAME!!
nad!!nt awk g kt blog sy catch entry khas utk awk!!crilah ek..de pic awk mse wedding sy!
weh comel nye nad!aku pon cinta internet gituh
wuuuu
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