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In the world of academia..


You will feel like a LOSER when..


- Takde gi present paper kat any conferences.
- Takde published journal. Refereed journal. Impact journal. Gile.
- Student menguap time ko bagi lecture. Dan ko pun sebenarnye tak paham ape ko tengah cakap.

- Everyone asking you when will you further your Phd when in fact pengalaman buat Master thesis ni pun hmmm..dunt know what to say. Very though. To tell you the truth, bile keje dalam bidang ni, people will recognized you depending on your performance academically. Ade tu yang double-standard, k. Belum ade Dr.? Takmo kawan. Selagi belom ade title Dr. kat depan name penuh kite tu..And selagi tu..we felt so small among the society. Kerdil dan pendek je rase. Huhu.


There's a saying goes..menuntut ilmu ni umpama berjihad. Whoever yang dah rase stresful moments buat thesis, you'll get what I mean..perhaps. Thesis bukan macam assignment..sekali buat, terus taraaaaa..siap! I'm not gifted..but I struggle to be what I am..and in this world, I found many inspiring people whom I think, bestnye jadik orang bijak ni..People we called gifted..Bile bercakap..bagilah ape-ape issue pun..they can give strong and firm points. Bleh buat orang nganga OK. When they were assigned to do something..they did it well. Very well. Sumer orang citer pasal life mase further studies. Minum kopi sambil tengok salji. Tuh belum lagik citer pasal shopping kat Harrods, tunjuk gambar posing depan kedai Coach sambil kendong paperbag Coach. Ok, yang ni memang tak ilmiah. Ergh. Tahun depan dah kene kick-out semula..and I'm afraid of so many uncertainties. HRD, Head Dept, Seniors asyik tanye and encourage belajar abroad and settle cepat-cepat padahal bile tanye betul-betul bajet ade ke tak diorang jawab takde. Dah tu? Bagusla tu buat orang pening kepala.


Okeh, sambung balik..

You will feel like you're floating up in the sky when..
Student puji cun padahal ko tak pakai bedak langsung haritu. Natural beauty. Kot?? Enuff ye pempuan perasan.


Rase nak lempang seseorang bile..
Ada orang tanye bile nak ade baby sambil raba-raba perot orang yang ditanye *out of topic*

It's nuthin actually. New semester. New faces. Of course, new determination. Feels like wanting to do all the things in the world. How I wish. Ni dah bukak new semester, barulah terhegeh-hegeh nak gi library. Pastu hujan lah pulakkkk..habes basah kuyup dalam keadaan tak ubah macam pempuan selebet terkedek-kedek sebab pinjam 10 bijik buku hard-cover. Berat, nauzubillah. Ehh, pempuan tamak mane tu?? Macam nak borong sume buku. Maklumlah jarang masuk library. Terbawak-bawak perangai makcik-makcik bile beli barang dapur, sume mende nak kaut. Hehe. Konon boleh habes khatamkan semua. Nak start class harusla belajar dulu. Karang student tanye macam-macam terkesima di situ ye. So now tengah pening buat notes FoodTech. Dulu mane belajar food tech sangat..nih tetibe kene ajar FoodTech. STRESSSSSSS!!


Pastu ada request dari ministry supaye pensyarah bidang teknikal&vokasional perlu ada Sijil SKM Tahap 4. Sebab cikgu-cikgu yang kitorang produce mungkin perlu ada Sijil SKM Tahap 3 bile nak posting kat sekolah-sekolah nanti.. Nih semua sebab transformasi technical schools to vocational schools tu. Ape relevannye aku kene amik SKM tu pulakkkkkk. Level 4 pulak tu.


Banyaknye pending stuff. Tak sempat lagik nak gi sekolah tengok student yang tengah buat latihan mengajar. Hmm..kadang-kadang rase workload sebijik macam pensyarah..padahal tutor je..But i love it cause i think we should learn from experience. Ikut polisi, kalau dah ada master pun kene tunggu dah ada pHd baru lantikan ke 51. Lamenye..rugi mase, rugi benefit..tahla rugi macam-macam sebenarnye dalam mase 6-7 tahun gaji statik pulak tu kat takuk 41. Imagine. Sekarang dah nak masuk 4 tahun I keje nih. Pasni gaji stagnant je..Nak buat government loan kalau nak beli rumah pun tak lepas sebab status jawatan bertaraf sementara. DS51 tu pun lantikan sementara je. Nak dapat tetap ke lantikan DS52 katanye kene published 2 article in high impact journal. Dua ye. Dua? Kalau tak, sampai bile-bile la tak sah jawatan. Sounds scary! Dengar citer, proses nak being accepted in High Impact Journal tu pun makan tahun gak. Tapi tutor fakulti lain dah sebok nak buat reformasi mintak DS45 (jawatan tetap) kalau dah ada master. Siap nak kumpul tandatangan ramai-ramai. Korang nih, karang banyak cekadak sangat kene kick-out baru tau. Actually..i rarely talked bout work in blog. Hehe. Nih dah tak tahan tekanan sangatla ni.

I'm just an ordinary person..who wish for big car, big house, big money, big pay, big husband (got it!)..and the most important thing..BIG DREAMS..

Inspirations

And..last but not least..will you go extra miles for..ehem..untuk seekor anak kucing yang mengade-ngade ini???


Demmit. There goes our 70 bucks. Sesakit-sakit aku tak pernahla gi klinik pastu kene caj sampai 70 hingget. Just for his ear treatment. So untuk sape2 yang interested nak bela kucing (sape yang dah biase bela kucing mungkin dah tau.eheh.) please check their ears. Kalau ade macam disgusting (uhukss..) kotoran, kaler hitam-hitam..macam stain dalam telinga..etc..it means they have kutu telinga. Vet tu siap amik sample then tunjuk kat bawak mikroskop..Poor Timtim. Geli I tengok kutu tu..and kesian..mesti saket gile telinga die.

Main dokter-dokter

I ade satu perangai tak suke buat keje 'menggentel' macamni..dan juga seperti memandikan serta menghairdryerkan kucing. So I tengokkan jela husband buat sambil snap gambar. Haha. Typical me.

Tenyeh habes-habesan

Ok. Puas hati.

Husband kept saying..I'm doing this because I love you..not because I love Timtim.


Now husband dah balik KL sape lagi yang nak buat, kan. So tiap hari balik je keje dah jadik satu keje overtime la pulak kene bersihkan telinga die. Kalau reti dok diam tak pe jugak. Nih I rase nak lepuk je time die meronta-ronta. In fact dah lepuk dah pun aritu. Pastu rase macam stupid pulak.


Ko ingat kucing macam budak kecik? Bile dah kene jotos kepale tu pandai dok diam? Takde maknanye.


Sekian. Good nyte.


Husband, goodnyte to you.


Suddenly I felt sad when I remember how he pesan kat Timtim supaye jaga I baik-baik time die pegi jauh. :(